Friday, August 26, 2005

Summer time in the Nanjing

I am here, I arrived alright after the longest flight in recorded history, I am a bit frazzled right now but I will write an update later then post it.

Promies

Rob

Sunday, August 21, 2005

this much I know is true

That I have never in my life had never met anyone who can light up a room just with their pressence like you can. I have never felt anything that was as universally good and pure as I do about you. I do not exactly know how I will be able to function without you, but I know that I will, and I know that we will still be something when I get back. There is only one thing about which I am absolutely certain and that is you, and my feelings for you, and the greatness of what he have had and what we will have. All the pain I am feeling right now is a small drop in the ocean compared with all of the happiness which I have gotten from our relationship, and all of the hurt only serves to remind me of how much I still love you and how wonderful it will be when we are together again. I did not even know it, but I was searching for you all my life, and now that I have found you it will take more then a planet between us for this wonderful amazing thing we have to end.

I LOVE YOU

-Rob

Thursday, August 18, 2005

I honestly don't know...

I would preface this entry by stating that it shall be mopey, but it is what I am feeling right now and it is related to the whole going abroad experience. That being said, I would make it known that being apart from Brenna is eating me up inside. I am naturally not a tremendously optimistic person and on top of that I have both an overactive imagination and a subconcious that tends to give me stressful dreams. Anyone who has read my blog (assuming that anyone actually has) would know that I am absolutely crazy about my girlfriend, and while I haven't actually discussed her as an indepedent person that much rest assured she is amazing. Frankly the idea of being apart from her for such a time is doing weird things to my thought process and I am being very irrational.

If I were to try to analyze my behavior thus far I woudl say that it results from my not having a really significant relationship before Brenna, and that I have never ever felt anything remotely similar to the depth of feelings I have for her. This relationship I have had with her is so comepletely rediculously wonderful that I honestly do not know if I could cope with its absence in a healthy mature way.

I am finding myself imagining ways in which what we have built up over these last 4 wonderful monthes could somehow end and I am on some level convincing myself that is exactly what will happen. I find that upsetting for several reasons, I don't want to end anything with her, it shows a lack of confidence on my part in our relationship and even worse in her, I might end up through these actions willing it true.

Yet when I think rationally about this situation I cannot help but feel reassurred, I do have confidence in the bond Brenna and I have created, anything as great as what we had cannot be dimmed merely by distance and it became such an all consuming part of our lives that maybe letting it simmer down for a while is the best solution for creating something that could last for a long long time. And I am absolutely confident in my feelings for her, and I know that she feels that same way about me, and I know that I am not looking for anyone else now, nor do I plan on doing so while I am abroad so to expect her to do so would be assumimg that her feelings are not as genuine as mine and I know that is not the case. Also if anything Brenna has an outstanding talent at making sure I know she loves me and making me feel loved all the time. I think that I am just used to being spoiled by the constant attention I recieved from her and now that there is a physical distance between us and we are both getting busy with out lives I am trying to cope with my withdrawal I am feeling from the privelage of being around such a wonderful and amazing girl.

I am sorry for the convoluted and whiney nature of this post, but that is how my mind works sometimes, and until I have more tangible things to distract me, or I am able to be with Brenna again, there is a risk of more of these types of posts, but they help me sort things out, so thanks for bearing with me.


-Rob

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

thought I was gone?

Well nope, not yet at least, I am still going to update this crap and I will continue to do so. probably.

Again I am back home, having gone down to Greensboro to drop of my Brenna at school. The had thing about us not being the same age is that we are increasingly finding it difficult to be in the same location at the same time. She still has two of college left and I am all graduated and as such I need to be where my job is, which happens to be in China. To say that I will, or already do miss her is a titanic understatement, for the last 4 monthes she has been the light of my life. Her beauty, intelligence, charm, and infenctious enthusiam have me wrapped around her little finger, and I would not be anywhere else if I could. Yet I am committed to China nd I do not regret that committment, if anything the seperation is a test which our relationship will pass and in doing so prove its strength and longevity. I have absolute confidence in Brenna as a person and in our future, and therefore I know that my going to China and her having a great junior year with her friends are the best paths we can take before we once again walk together as one.

Friday, August 12, 2005

Back in the Chocolate City...

So I have returned to the warm bosom of my native land for a brief stint before I travel to the exotic "New South" then later to the slightly more exotic far east. It would seem that my family has grown by one in the week that I was gone. My mom seems to have gone and adopted a Norwegian girl named Anna to live with us and experience the wonders of the American public educational system and of living with the Burmans.

Paul and Dad have also returned from their bike ride across the totally sweet continent of North America. They rode across America and a small chunk of Ontario from west to east in order to raise a little money for an organization called Partners in Health. They managed to raise over 100,000 for them through small donations and pledges based on their mileage (3600), their website and blog can be found here.

-Rob

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Speaking of Carny's...


Honestly I meant to drop the subject of carny's. really I did. I felt that I gave an concise if slightly dishonest appraisal of Delaware's citizenry and their habits.

Enter FUNLAND

Funland, for those of you not in the proverbial "know" is a boardwalk hall of amusements in Rehobeth beach Delaware, with rides and Skeeball and such. I came across it last night with my girlfriend and some of her friends who were experts at the sort of fun which Funland routinely discharges. This being my first experience of fun I was led patiently around funland by the beautiful Brenna and we started things off with the terrifying and spooky Haunted Mansion. Now legend has it that the Haunted Mansion actually predates the creation of Funland by nearly a century when it was built upon an old Indian burial ground which was itself ironically built upon a gaping hole strait into the firery depthes of hell itself. Perhaps the most frightening thing about this horrible mansion was the fact that in it Dr. Jeckyll, Count Dracula, and the Wolfman himself has decided to live together in some sort of situation which is only legal in Delaware and Hawaii.

Having barely survived this harrowing experience Brenna decided that I would be best served by shitting my panties on this horrible ride they have called the Sea Dragon, Now I will state here and now that I do not like heights, and by do not like I actually mean that they make me cry. Brenna did not know this and when I told her repeatedly she thought I was joking, so we got on this dragon of the sea (actually an old viking ship which washed ashore in Delaware several hundred years ago) and I was led the the second scariest seat available by my loving girlfriend. THere is no way I can accurately describe the terror I felt as we hurtled back and forth presumeably to our DOOM, let it only be said that there are now pictures of me crying like a bitch on Brenna's camera, if anyone actually reads this and asks for them they will be provided.

Next was the bumper cars wherein I had my sweet vengence upon the fair lady and she yelled at a four year old for driving like a small child, funny that.

Then my girlfriend won me a stuffed animal at a game of skill because we roll like that and I throw everything in a very girlish manner.

Finally since my earlier sobbing was apearantly not convincing enough, I was again led by the hand to a hellish contraption called the Parachute Ride, this device resembling a ferris whell but fast and scary. Once again I spent most of the ride crying with my eyes closed in Brenna's ample bosom, that is until the carny who was operating the ride started laughing and pointing at me to which I replied "screw you carny" (Brenna would point out that I replied thusly from a distance and not particularly loudly, I would retort that you dont insult the carny until the ride stops".

The end.

-Rob

Speaking of Carny's...

Honestly I meant to drop the subject of carny's. really I did. I felt that I gave an concise if slightly dishonest appraisal of Delaware's citizenry and their habits.

Enter FUNLAND

Funland, for those of you not in the proverbial "know" is a boardwalk hall of amusements in Rehobeth beach Delaware, with rides and Skeeball and such. I came across it last night with my girlfriend and some of her friends who were experts at the sort of fun which Funland routinely discharges. This being my first experience of fun I was led patiently around funland by the beautiful Brenna and we started things off with the terrifying and spooky Haunted Mansion. Now legend has it that the Haunted Mansion actually predates the creation of Funland by nearly a century when it was built upon an old Indian burial ground which was itself ironically built upon a gaping hole strait into the firery depthes of hell itself. Perhaps the most frightening thing about this horrible mansion was the fact that in it Dr. Jeckyll, Count Dracula, and the Wolfman himself has decided to live together in some sort of situation which is only legal in Delaware and Hawaii.

Having barely survived this harrowing experience Brenna decided that I would be best served by shitting my panties on this horrible ride they have called the Sea Dragon, Now I will state here and now that I do not like heights, and by do not like I actually mean that they make me cry. Brenna did not know this and when I told her repeatedly she thought I was joking, so we got on this dragon of the sea (actually an old viking ship which washed ashore in Delaware several hundred years ago) and I was led the the second scariest seat available by my loving girlfriend. THere is no way I can accurately describe the terror I felt as we hurtled back and forth presumeably to our DOOM, let it only be said that there are now pictures of me crying like a bitch on Brenna's camera, if anyone actually reads this and asks for them they will be provided.

Next was the bumper cars wherein I had my sweet vengence upon the fair lady and she yelled at a four year old for driving like a small child, funny that.

Then my girlfriend won me a stuffed animal at a game of skill because we roll like that and I throw everything in a very girlish manner.

Finally since my earlier sobbing was apearantly not convincing enough, I was again l

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Delaware: Land of the Carnies

I have been having a wonderful vacation with Brenna and her family, but there is something that I have noticed since arriving in this fair state of Delaware. It is either the home or an irresistible magnet for many if not all of our great nations "carny" population. Those of you who rarely leave cities or who aren’t Americans may wonder what a carny is, yet even you have probably come across these brave and resourceful entrepreneurs from time to time, for they are the mulletted multitude who serve you at baseball games and upscale mini-golf locations.

Bethany also seems to attract many second generation Carnys who have largely forgone the basic elements of their forebears lifestyle in order to live the new American dream of unnecessarily large automobiles and gastric bypass. These "New Jerseyites" have largely resettled in the southern part of that state and are almost singlehandedly responsible for the resurgence of Bon Jovi in the late 1990's. It is also this same group of nouveau riche that annually descend upon their homeland and walk around the boardwalk eating fried candies and discussing the ethical and metaphysical distinctions between traditional variations of iced cream and dippin dotz.

Incidently today will mark 4 months that Brenna has put up with me and I would state here and now that they have been the best of my life, there is no one kinder or sweeter in the whole world and no one I would rather spend my time with, she is my ideal of perfect beauty and grace and if I keep on writing this will get rather mushy and long winded. In short she is my definition of pure love.

-Rob

Sunday, August 07, 2005

My LIfe in Delaware

So I am of course still here in the beautiful and scenic DelMarVa peninsula with the love of my life and a good portion of her immediate familia. Our efforts to copulate were hindered by the fact that I am both afraid of her parents wrath and I respect their policy towards shennanigans under their roof.

We went to the beach yesterday and today and I am stunned by the beauty of this seashore and the quality of the people who choose to visit this scenic little bit of paridise on the mid-atlantic. Brenna saw a t-shirt the other day that read "Paris, Rome, London, Bethany" truer words are seldom inscribed on a pastel t-shirt, for Bethany Beach truly is the Paris of Delaware.

Also for those who would consider it their business my attempts to find free internet have failed, there does not seem to be a single free "hot spot" in Bethany and I have resigned myself to paying for this internet but at least I can solace in the fact that I did so using my moms credit card, ZING!

-Rob out-

Saturday, August 06, 2005

life's a beach

Whats up homies, sorry I haven't "rapped" at you in a while but it would seem that the rest of the world is not as wifi friendly as I am used to. As I write this I am sitting in the sole portal through which one might delve into into the internet in the "city" of bethany beach in the great state of Delaware.

Why am I here might you ask?

Because I am on vacation with my girlfriend, Brenna Powers whose phone number is 202 555 1819, it only costs 1.99 a minute and believe me its worth every penny. She is actually sitting here next to me in this little nerd hovel watching me type these very words. We are in the process of trying to figure out some way to make the beast with two backs (thats not trashy its Shakespeare) without her parents finding out. I probably wont be online for updates much this week up I will try to find a way to get back online without paying for it.

Smell you later,
Rob

Thursday, August 04, 2005

allow myself to introduce myself

My name is Rob, I am 24 years old and I have the most wonderful girlfriend in the world. I just graduated from a small liberal arts college in North Carolina called Guilford with a degree in history and minors in East Asian studies and visual arts (Ceramics - my not so secret passion). I am also a HUGE dork, I revel in the mundane details of the tech industries and I have been playing video games since way back in the day. There is more to tell but now is not the time, becuase I cant think of everything.

p.s. pictures are forthcoming... once I get around to them

Rob

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

hello internet

This is my first step towards jumping on this whole blogging bandwagon thig people have been yapping about. The purpose of this blog is to provide some insight into the goings on of my life for those interested.

--Why is my life interesting?

Well it really isn't right now, other then an astoundingly beautiful girlfriend I am a faily typical recent college graduate who is about to leave the security of their parents basement for what I hear is the real world. The interesting thing is that for me the real world is in the Chinese city of Nanjing where I will be working as an art teacher at a preschool. I am going far out of my comfort zone and away from my loved ones to spend the next 10 months teaching art of small children on the other side of the planet. On this blog you will be able to come along with me and share some of my experiences in this rapidly developing superpower. In the weeks leading up to my departure for China I will update this blog and tell you more about myself, my family, and other figures of importance in my life.

Rob